Taking a Leap

inner peaceI logged on to write a blog today and was notified that it is my two year anniversary with Word Press. This has been a roller coaster of a two years for me. In February of 2012, I moved back to the states from the Virgin Islands and ended an almost ten year long relationship that had become quite toxic toward the end. I published my first novel. I started a journey toward becoming the best me I could be and, concurrently, loving myself exactly as I am. I published two more novels. I had two short term, but quite healing and lovely in many ways, love relationships. I went to the Michigan Womyn’s Music Festival twice. (See my blog on that if you are interested in learning about this amazing festival for women.) This one.

I wrote a blog about Christians and gays that pretty much went viral and was read in church by at least three preachers of varying sorts. (Edited for language, I believe. I’m pretty sure I used the word “asshole” too many times for most parishioners to be comfortable.) I lived off of my royalties. I lived in a camper in the woods. I lived in a lake house. I lived in a farm town in Iowa. I moved wherever and whenever I wanted. I traveled to Memphis and Phoenix and Palm Springs and Dallas. I went to literary conferences. I met a few soul mate friends. I set up learning about this Beth person without artifice. I made a pact to live an authentic life. I danced, I flirted, I made love, I fought, I got angry. I tried to take every chance I had at learning more about myself, why I react the way I do, and how to react differently if necessary. I put a “Namaste” sticker on the back of my car and then laughed at the irony of flipping someone off through the sunroof because they were tailing me on the freeway. I became a vegetarian. I stopped being a vegetarian. I became a vegetarian again. I went on a spiritual retreat. I grew confident.. I laughed at myself. I laughed at life. I laughed with joy. I laughed until tears ran down my face and I couldn’t breathe. I learned to love me.Truly love me.

The end result of this is that I am now the kind of person who believes that if something is calling to my soul, I should make every effort to do it.

The other day, a friend of mine suggested making a grocery list of things that call to my soul and see how that panned out as far as making a living. Well, really, what I want to do is write, talk to readers, meet other authors, do book readings, and go to literary conferences. Oh, and I want to just spread joy and love and happiness to everyone I can. I mean, why *can’t*  make a living spreading joy and happiness and love to people? To that end, I am leaving my day job and focusing on marketing my books, writing more, teaching classes on writing, and giving workshops that help women come to the same self-love that I now possess. I want them to learn to value themselves.

It’s authentic. It’s what calls to my soul. It brings me joy. I may not be able to make a living at it yet, but I don’t care. I don’t belong in  a cubicle wearing business casual, punching someone else’s time clock. I belong out in the world, spreading love and happiness. That’s why my books are happy… and it’s why I’m happy. Now, I am going to work at bringing that happiness and peace to others.

It’s a leap, but then, I like to live on the edge. I’d rather fail at something a million times than to not have tried it because I was afraid.

In the meantime, you can help by buying my awesome new book, “The Love Sucks Club” which isn’t really about love sucking after all.

http://www.amazon.com/Love-Sucks-Club-Beth-Burnett-ebook/dp/B00JDIC4TA/ref=sr_1_1?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1398621174&sr=1-1

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6 responses to “Taking a Leap

  1. A lovely, loving post. Congratulations on making the move out of the cubicle! 🙂

    –Linda Dee

  2. I cried when I read your post…Oh, to have that courage to do what feeds your soul!
    I “met” you when your writings about Christianity were passed around in California. I hope someday to meet you in person. As a gay woman and a believing Christian, I have often struggled with reconciling what Jesus taught and what others think He taught. The attacks, often by well-meaning people, are devastating to one’s mental state. It becomes easier to keep your head down and walls up.
    I am so happy that you have realized what life is about and what that means to you. Keep going and sharing…

  3. jhidzia

    Great job Beth! Love the way you put the namaste and the finger together! Love the entire piece.

  4. I cried when I read your post…Oh, to have that courage to do what feeds your soul!
    I “met” you when your writings about Christianity were passed around in California. I hope someday to meet you in person. As a gay woman and a believing Christian, I have often struggled with reconciling what Jesus taught and what others think He taught. The attacks, often by well-meaning people, are devastating to one’s mental state. It becomes easier to keep your head down and walls up.
    I am so happy that you have realized what life is about and what that means to you. Keep going and sharing…

  5. beautiful, beautiful! and you’ll no doubt leap with joy!

  6. Wow, what an eventful couple of years! And what a great blog post.

    And well done for taking that scary leap and going after what you really want to do. As a fellow writer (yet to be published) I’m always thrilled when I hear of people pursuing their dreams. That’s what the world needs more of.

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